When I see people who are truly, truly happy, especially people who are in love, it makes me cry.

What a sad state of affairs.

I just do not understand the world.  How can my greatest, true love who I was supposed to marry and my most sisterly friend just disappear from my life?


(This is a little edit for someone who made a comment - I deleted the comment, because it is kind of irrelevant and while I know the intentions were very good, I am slightly offended by the fact that the advice offered was offered without bothering to read any of this blog - my friend did not start dating someone else, she committed suicide and is in fact completely gone.  I hope I don't sound like a huge bitch, honestly I just want to clarify, I'm not mad!)