Second day of summer

A little background:

I have been reading blogs about girls struggling with weight issues for more than four years. I started on xanga, which I still love and continue to update, and found a bunch of blogger hosted blogs over the past year that I constantly read and re-read.

I recently finished my first year of graduate school - I am 22. My fascination with all of this began my sophomore year in college, when under a lot of pressure from different areas of my life, I began restricting and exercising and getting high off of the feeling of losing weight. I am 5'7.5" and my body generally tries to maintain somewhere around 140 lbs. That year, I dropped from about 145 to 128 in just a two months. I felt great and have struggled with ups and downs since, never quite reaching that low weight ever again.

This February, my boyfriend broke my heart and I easily dropped to 132 in a matter of two weeks, since I could do nothing but cry and sleep.

My current weight, due to recent restricting, is 137.8 lbs.

I will be 125 by the end of this summer, no matter what it takes.